i only know love

funny how i cldnt get through your phone yet you could still receive my msg.

i hate the way you’re behaving. soft. ure my bf forgoodnessake.

you are always not the one to make my day.

its like im fighting my own war. alone.

(Source: leilockheart, via i-jojulie)

what ge what fk? i dn give a dam. idc who wins. here i am trying to juggle exams and bf. there they are trying to do stupid elections. im alr fkin bz w sch and bf. nw elections?

you want to vote for who idc either. how loyal faithful or any adjectives u want to call urself. i have rights to my own votes so i can vote for whoever i think has bigger dicks or lesser hair.

i see you, i get angry. whether im tryin to vent all my angst on you, or ure jst dam fkin gd at makin me angry i cant draw the line. i have too much angst. i need anger management. maybe i shld take yoga. or join a religion or smth.

fk.

you are angry with him and refuses to speak to him. yet you check your phone every minute to see if he texted you.

i need something.

something for me to =)

pain. hurt. disappointment. makes people change. sometimes forever.

you were like a crazy monster scaring away all of us. making us hide in our rooms as if its the only place we feel safe.

but today, you smiled, you laughed, and you bought stuffs. as though nothing ever happened before.

i cant take your temper.

today, you cried infront of me. you said i am ashamed because of you just for the fact that you didnt uds english. (THAT HAD NV APPEARED AT THE BACK OF MY HEAD. if i did, why wld i want to bring my whole bunch of friends and introduce them to you?)

you said i like to wear revealing clothes and disgrace the family. (it was merely revealing my lower back because i was sitting down and the shirt cldnt cover entirely. my butt crack wasnt even seen.)

you said i always disrespect you and go against your will even though you specifically said no. (im not a kid anymore. you have to give me legitimate reasons to believe your theory. you cannot say because some old tales said cold coffee gives diabetes so you prevent me from drinking. you cannot say because tampons are meant for married women so you ban me from using it. you cannot say because you think its wrong so i have to abide.)

you said i always like to talk back. (its called replying. so that you could know what im thinking inside.)

you said i always raise my voice at you. (well, you do that to me all the time. that’s an example you have been showing to me since young. if you could why cant i?)

you always think you’re the only one suffering. (what you dont know is how i’ve been crying myself to sleep or crying while showering to make myself feel better.)

you say im stubborn i dont listen. (maybe if u stop being so stubborn i will see its possible for me too.)

you always like to blame me for our bad relationship. (its not me. you just chose not to listen to my voice.)

its been ten over years. im tired, mom.